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Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
9:49 pm - It's hard to say it, Time to say it, Goodbye
New LJ


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Sunday, January 8th, 2006
2:44 pm - And Growing old together

Take this quiz!

That being said....I have a house for next year, signed the lease last night!!!

current mood: chipper

(6 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Monday, December 19th, 2005
9:18 pm - Cold, Cold, Would you light my candle?
so I just thought you'd all like to know that:




Not that I'm excited or anything

current mood: bouncy

(3 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
2:33 am - When everything's meant to be broken I just want you to know who I am
Sometimes I feel more like I'm an object than a person. I'm more of a catalyst than anything else. I'm here so that others can feel better, so that others can make good friends, so that others have an easier time of it. Yes I know I like time to myself. Yes I know that I don't let very many people in, that they get let in in stages, and that I'm rather hard to understand on all my different levels and can therefore be difficult. It would be nice though if for one day that small voice at the back of my head that keeps telling me I'm being used in some way or another would go away. I'm sure if I decided to I could just make it all go away, every last bit of it would just disappear, but then I'd have only a select few left in my life and those are people that, though I know they'll always be there, don't have the most time in the world to dedicate to me. Maybe I'm just too needy or the things I need from people are things that aren't easily given up, I ask for too complicated a relationship right from the start. Countless times I've gotten close to someone or at least I thought we were close and then I introduce them to someone else and I'm left in the dust of two new best friends who'll think to include me every now and then but not all the time. I know you don't believe it of me but I am actually a shy person, don't give me that look like I don't know what I'm talking about trust me I know myself! I am shy and to a certain degree I do need to be invited to things, even just tell me that something is happening ahead of time so that I have the option of showing up. Instead I stand by and watch as most of life passes me by, all the memories I would cherish I never get to experience. I open other people up so they can be more forward and end up having a tonne of fun while I'm still there floundering for a foundation wanting someone to give me an arm. Maybe that's where my mistake is. I assume people are looking and seeing through my facade when really I should just assume that everyone else is worried about themselves just like I am. I find it amusing that I have countless friends yet there are only a few who I feel would be there for me no matter what happened down the line. It's kind of sad in a way I guess, especially considering how little I talk to those people. Maybe I should just change who I am.

current mood: calm

(6 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

1:39 am - But inside your heart is black and it's hollow and it's cold
So I gots me a cell phone for mah Birthday!

So obviously it's long distance from uni, however, when I'm in TO I get unlimited incoming local calls etc...

current mood: chipper

(whisper in my ear)

12:56 am - We come and we go

Amanda made me...I just took awhile to respond

Write 5 things that make happy (in no particular order) and then tag 5 others to do the same...

1.   People leaving Drunken messages
2.   Talking in the Third person
3.   Books
4.   Sunsets
5.   Cuddling

I tag Rai, Vera, Claire, Jon-0, and Cally-beast

current mood: busy

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Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
12:38 am - With this rampant chaos your reality
"I'll buy a rolo flavoured condom, freeze it, and then we'll have some fun"

current mood: cold

(7 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Saturday, October 15th, 2005
5:51 pm - Put on my face
Nice to know that no one is even willing to see my side of it at all.

current mood: pissed off

(2 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Thursday, October 13th, 2005
12:27 am - You missed a spot over there

I'm 1/3 done my essay that's due tomorrow.....only 1500 words left to go.

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current mood: Caffeinated

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Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
3:15 pm - I'm open You're closed
New Layout....sort of

current mood: Insane

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Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
1:53 am - we had the moon we had the stars we were divine
So I have just figured out that for $850 I could have a plane ticket to BC for June....now if only I knew the exact dates I was going down and wasn't broke that'd be great! Oh and had figured out what's going on with me and work for the summer and how much I needed to earn and if I could afford to take 2 weeks off to go visit or if I can't take that much time....God things have gotten confusing for the summer and it's not even that far into October yet!


That being said Mac is amazing. I love the University life. Classes are great, people are great, there is much fun to be had.
As of today half of my romantic life is figured out so yay for that! (it's a first for me)
As of Wednesday I will no longer be living in the beaches, I will be in Islington. I will, however, have the car pretty much anytime after 8 so that won't be a problem.
I'm actually happy as of late so I've decided to just shut my mind off and try not to think of anything too hard that way I won't overanalyze and ruin everything.
Dear god get a phone already!

Thanksgiving was amazing, I got to see my whole fam damily for the first time in almost a year. Lots of food lots of arguing it was amazing.
My Cousin Sara drove me back to Mac and it was nice to finally be able to talk to her and not have anyone else around...that hasn't happened in almost 5 years now, scary.

Serenity and Blue Collar Comedy Tour own my soul

I have so much work to do it's not even funny....oh well no class tomorrow so I'll work on it then...I hope!

Now to sleep I go b/c I can barely keep my eyes open

Ciao all x0x0

current mood: happy

(whisper in my ear)

Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
6:47 pm - You said you would never leave me alone
Holy hell why do I only make things harder for myself?

current mood: confused

(3 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
10:56 am - A side of me you didn't know
Oh fuck Oh fuck Oh fuck Oh fuck

current mood: stressed

(2 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Friday, September 23rd, 2005
2:11 am - Safe from the eyes and all the stupid questions
So this is just a quick update before I run to Toronto for the weekend. Gotta love the birthdays!

so the past two and a half weeks or so have been amazing, I still can't believe I haven't been back yet. I feel like I've always lived here, it's amazing!

And on that note.

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That is all

ciao all x0x0

current mood: sleepy

(whisper in my ear)

Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
9:26 pm

(1 shining eye | whisper in my ear)

Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
11:43 pm - trying to conceal

So about that I have to find a better time to do homework....or you know speed the process up somehow.....as interesting as it is just no.

Oh and murphy has decided to fuck me.....I can't get my math textbook yet, I don't have the notes from the first class that I didn't know existed, and I have a quiz next class!

Young can I blame you for putting him in the doghouse?

ciao all x0x0

current mood: blah

(2 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Monday, September 19th, 2005
11:46 pm - I meant all the things I said
Best night of my life.

current mood: content

(4 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Monday, September 5th, 2005
5:54 pm - Throw away the chains

So another day is half done and already I can't talk properly. I don't think I've yelled that much ever! Including when I was a baby and had no other means of expressing myself!
It's actually kind of strange being surrounded by so much spirit all the time. And the cheers, there are so many different cheers! I can't believe it but I actually know so many different cheers and we still don't even know all of them!
Today I got to be a woodstock girl when we went to the bed races......I'll post a pic of me later. Pretty much it was a bunch of girls with Woodstock Hall! written on our stomach's (one letter per) I was the H, it was so much fun!

Well I hope everyone is enjoying themselves as much as I am whatever it is they're doing right now
Now off to chill before bloc party starts.


current mood: bouncy

(2 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

Sunday, September 4th, 2005
11:24 pm - I'll be home
So I'm here. I'm hoarse. I'm dead. And I'm getting woken up at 8 tomorrow morning......somebody please help me?

Other than that I'm having a fabulous time

Miss all of you already, hope you're all having a great time no matter what it is you're doing. I'll see you guys soon I'm sure.

ciao all x0x0

current mood: sleepy

(whisper in my ear)

Monday, August 29th, 2005
12:41 am - Hate everyone else's more
So I have 100 gmail invites......anybody want one?

(2 shining eyes | whisper in my ear)

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